I have always been interested in yoga. I remember picking up a couple of books by Tara Fraser when I was a teenager, but not quite understanding what I was doing as I was sitting in Baddha Konasana in my bedroom. Later in my twenties, when I became ill with POTS, yoga was one of the few types of exercise I was told I could do, so I started Ashtanga and started to feel strong again.
But the time when yoga became integrated into my life was after an event which left me with debilitating PTSD. I remember feeling like my mind was disconnected from my body; my head had gone elsewhere, and my mindless body was lethargic, yet anxious. Depressed, yet restless. I was sleep deprived from having recurring nightmares of the incident, and I avoided certain social events due to fear of what might happen. My support network was slim, and I was told I’d have to wait six months for therapy on the NHS.
In the meantime, my yoga practice was keeping me going; attending early morning Ashtanga Mysore classes, I found my support network. Not everyone knew the story, but even when the yoga shala was packed, people made room for me because they knew I needed yoga. My pranayama and meditation practice deepened in order to ground me. I started to reconnect my body, mind and soul.
Six months later, still suffering from PTSD, my NHS therapy was scheduled, but it wasn’t the right fit. Back to the drawing board. I ended up seeing a private psychodynamic counsellor, and things started to fit together again. Several years on, I still see a psychodynamic therapist every week, and my yoga practice is deeper than ever. I continue to work on maintaining the mind, body and soul connection, and now I seek to help others achieve the same.
I am now training to become a therapist myself; by combining my training with yoga, I can create a safe space for my classes and programmes, enabling empowerment and self expression to reconnect mind and body, and help people connect back to a higher power. Through my yoga and therapy classes and programmes, I help students transform from survivors to warriors, feeling powerful and strong.